should i stay or should i go?

so today i sat in my car in the parking lot of LA fitness for three full minutes while i decided whether i was going to go in or not. is that normal?

on the positive side, i went in. and (as usual) i am glad a i did. but, it can be so hard to convince myself to go through with it. this is definitely a learning process.

week two: semi-success

this week i accomplished my goal, but i don't feel great about it. first, i feel like yoga has very quickly become my "fall back" workout, since i can do it at home and at any time. sometimes i have really great yoga workouts, but other times, its pretty lame. i'm also learning that i do NOT like going to gym on sundays. last week i had a really great workout, despite my reluctance to go. this week i had a fine workout, and i'm glad i went, but i definitely did NOT want to go. i guess i should remember that during the week when i want a night off.

this week i have a big challenge - four day weekend in SoCal...

first week: success!

i definitely did not want to do my 5th workout this week. but i did and it was good. bring on the next week!

5 times, 4 weeks, challenge

i have been hitting the gym fairly regularly these days, but in reality that has meant only 3 or 4 times a week (okay, usually 3). and i've been wondering lately what it's like to actually hit that "ideal goal" of 5 workouts a week. and i think in order to really know whether such a gym rat lifestyle would really work for me, i have to immerse myself in it 100%. i was telling a friend that it's kind of like when i was considering becoming a vegetarian. i had to live it completely to see if i liked it, if i hated, or if i just didn't care.

SO. i have decided that for 4 weeks (may 9th through june 5th, to be exact), i am going to commit to 5 workouts each week. now, i don't necessarily mean 5 trips to the gym... fortunately it is still cool enough here in tucson to enjoy some great outdoor activities (hopefully it will stay that way for four more weeks!)

this will definitely mean i have to be intentional and strategic about planning my days and workouts. especially because i have a trip to socal squeezed in the middle of my four weeks. but i'm already thinking about how to combine exercise and visiting friends, so i'm excited to see how it shapes up! i will keep you posted...

struggle has a purpose...

i have been struggling. struggling with relationships, struggling at work, struggling with making healthy choices.

i had a great weekend just four days ago, touring chicago with my favorite kidlets. but since i've come back, each day is challenge. work has been completely overwhelming this week. there is a light at the end of the tunnel (i.e., MONDAY), but this week has been a marathon of meetings, visiting scholars, guest presentations, and social dinners (not the fun kind, the kind where you have to be happy and sociable with your colleagues). it doesn't help that the hectic schedule leaves little time for talking to (or even facebook following) my friends and loved ones. or trips to the gym - which is only made worse by the frequent lunches and dinners out. ugh!

i just need to keep struggling until saturday. then i can have some time to regroup and start fresh.

cue the deep breathing.